Reality is the hardest thing to beat

I was told that I write when i am upset. Well this time im not upset :). More or less in thought. I have been lucky. This is a very relative statement and it greatly depends on your frame of mind.
 
I have seen that you or me is just one person in this world and we can only make a difference to just a few more people in this world. What others say like you change lives etc is a very debatable statement. Eg . Charles Babbage didnt invent the analytical engine so that he would change the life of millions. That would only be an ego boost but the prime purpose is to satisfy the craving in oneself.
 
The only lives he managed to affect were probably limited to his family and some close friends and nothing more. His inventions are acts and these are only changes could have been done by anyone . I personally dont care if he or a freaking alien came up with it as the person is not important and only his act. I say this cause currently this is been a hot topic of discussion.
 
So with that being said I have pretty much understood that your acts might matter to some people but you arent born to change the world.
 
Now this doesnt mean you are not important. This means that you understand your importance is limited to a few and once you have realized that then you are at peace. You do what you want to do but you should never forget what you do might be missed even by the ones who are closest to you.
 
I believe the pursuit of happiness is not a pursuit but a state of mind and being lucky is also the same. A lake in the dessert has more importance not by virtue of it being a lake but only because of the dessert. So if your lucky its only cause your mind feels that everything else inspite of it being barren land has still found some water.
 
I have a family and things anyone could ask. I wish to think I am lucky. But i crave to get out of the dessert or atleast forget about the desert like i used to before.